anxiety

anxiety. . . . . .

magic revealing itself when least expected

I just love when my world gets quiet enough... . almost feeling depressing, morbid at times- like nothing is going anywhere, everything has failed and nothing left to do but continue to walk forward....... and god only knows how I find somewhere the patience and serenity to just let it go, and let it be.. when all of a sudden the natural magic in the world reveals itself.. in my example there came some new, fresh, inspiring music I instantly heard and liked withing minutes of hearing for the first time---- that after a little looking up and listening too again all of a sudden becomes my new favorite... that i continue to listen to and get excited over. This particular example is the group Bell X2- The Great Defector...

now i'm not saying this is a great band, I haven't heard any other songs---but it's not about that (at least maybe not yet)... it's about the present vibe i'm getting off of it. That magic.

But I find in order to come across this kind of natural events revealing the greatness in our energies in life--- i need to isolate myself from distractions... unfortunately my current situation is being unemployed, and having a troubled and perhaps fading relationship with my lady... why can't this stuff happen during the other periods in life.. .. my mind doesn't seem to be quieted enough in those times----- only on the brink of depressed state/like nothing is going anywhere.........

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watchin Chris Rock.. comedy central. . . will continue with more substance items later.